Mamas mental health, isolating

I am so truly blessed to be home with my children especially during these difficult times of the covid-19 virus.

NHS is over worked, places are shut down.

School is out and we are all confined to our homes.

It sucks people! I adore my babies. I have a 9,5 and 3 year old and the oldest has been so bored she is literally dying her words not mine. My middle has been so hungry she has starved to death at least 20 times this week and my beautiful 3 year old has learned what ticks her sisters off and uses it wisely.

As a anxious mother of 3 suffering anxiety for 19 years it’s been an adjustment. Our kids are now off. I’m alone all day every day with only our garden as a form of exercise for us. I have become a teacher overnight and an I just say you teachers deserve so much more credit. My anxiety with the covid-19 outbreak has been dreadful now mixed with feeling alone and sad it isnt helpful. I have no job and was trying to find one before the outbreak. I have no release at the end of each day as my kids are nose to nose with me all day and night. Which is fine usually. But having am anxiety attack and hesting MUMMMMMMMMYYÝY every 3 seconds can be quite difficult.

So what do we as mamas or dads do? If we are anxious and in the house? Nothing we can really do is there. Our kids will continue to yell and want snacks. Our thoughts will run away wit worst case scenario. And our anxiety will reach the top but we have to snuggle our child or children tightly. Love them unconditionally. And sneak to the kitchen for a cup of tea and a snack yourself. Because we need to breathe too.

We havent failed if we yell. We havent failed if we dont do everything that was sent to us by the school. We havent failed if we accidentally taught our kids 3 new swear words this week. We are trying and we love them.

If you like me have no way to touch your man cos he is a country away and we are both broke on lock down. It’s okay to cry. Its okay to doubt yourself for a minute. Its absolutely fine to be a bit sassy often…… okay maybe not. But it’s okay. Push on. Push past this. I cant move for anxiety for minutes sometimes hours. I have a fast heart, feel light headed, nauseous, hot and dizzy. I have a tight chest I cry. But deep breathes. Pray to God that it’s going to blow over soon.